ITB offers nothing to me in terms of education. But the experience over there surely was good. It was one of the most down point of my life. At first, i was in total loneliness. No one there had the same thinking with me. They were simple lifeforms. Taking 1 day at a time, crapping all their life, directionless.

Ppl here speak only hokkien and mandarin. No one speaks english. All of them are AH BENGS. Ive sort of picked up their mother tongue called the "flowery word" language - the art of cursing and speaking bad words. I must say this guys are gifted in it. They can actually rap by just cursing.

I learnt how to adapt in a new place which is totally new to me. To be suddenly surrounded by AH BENGS is weird for me. But i must learn to survive. Ive sort of clique with them. Sooner or later, ive made a couple of great friends. We crap together.. the AH BENG way. Till today, we are still friends.

I must thank GOD for giving me this gift of being able to clique with any type of people, not many have this gift. Here i learn to polish this gift, Thank You LORD.

I didnt take the education seriously at all. It was too easy for me. So i just went to classes to lepak with my AH BENG frens. During breaks, we will go for a LONG break.

In ITB, life was all about SNOOKER. Ive played snooker before. But over here, the AH BENGS challenged me to a higher level. Everyday we played snooker. As long as there is break, we will go play snooker. Ive betted at times with the lousier players. There are times i spend almost the whole day in the snooker shop just watching great snooker players showing their true colours. I learnt to analyse the games. How to play the game from tactical point of view. It opened a new world to me. The cigarette smells from the snooker shop was always on my t-shirt. Dun get me wrong, ive never ever smoked in my life.

At first, i was lonely. U see, u may have friends, but somehow u r lonely. This loneliness, kills me day by day. It was here that i learnt to call my friends from a far. People ask me, U dad dont kill u about ur telephone bills? Like i care… i was darn lonely. I called ppl from INTI college, my KL friends, my God-sister,Yoko. All of them expressed their concern about my future. Thanx a lot for the support and prayers. But as time passes, i felt tat, like it or not, life must go on. People got on with their life. I cant keep bothering others. All i can do is wish them all the best.

At this point, Ive closed myself to the world. It was "Dasar Tutup Pintu" all the way. I was so embarassed and inferior to meet people whom i used to know. I was a goner. I used to be ambitious in everything i do, but at this point, i lost all my hopes.

At this institute, i learned to be humble. I know that i was gonna be a low-class educationless failure in life, so i shouldnt dream too big anymore. I thought, hmm.. maybe i should just live a humble life and forget about changing this world…. :)( yang bakal menggegar dunia… konon).

But somehow, i refuse to accept the fact that im a goner. I know that i was born to do something big. This is not about pride. But i just believe in myself that im gonna do something big and shake this world one day. I know myself very well. Im not an idiot. It would be such a waste for me to end up like this. I just needed some guidance. I have a destiny to fulfill !!!

to be continued…