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If u guys havent read the previous ones… click on the above.. i spent hours writing them.. Its about my life since i left Inti College till i finally become a FRONTLINER… check it out !!!

Previously i mentioned about my friends. Now, meet the bad guys.

When i was studying in ITB, there was 1 person whom i despise. The tauke’s wife.

Tauke’s wife.

I dislike this lady till today. A typical hypocrite. She spoke so well to my parents that they got eaten by her words. She exaggerated her words and gave many false promises to my parents. This lady is a typical person who treats u based on ur status. I have no respect for such person. Later u will know y i say so…

When i went to the institut the first day, she treated me as though i was her so called son in law. She introduced me to the whole class. I thought that was the normal procedure. But later i found out, she only does that to me. All the other ah bengs told me, she treats me more special than the others because i come from a well off family.

Calling me to her office for HOURS !!!

I felt so embarass everytime she calls me out to her office. All the other ah Bengs even started calling  me her son in law. She will call me to her office and talk for hours during classes. Im stuck in there listening to her nonsense. Then she tries to korek some information bout me. Dream on. She’ll never know the true me. I heard from other ah bengs that she call them to keep an eye on me. Asking them to report to her bout anything they know bout me.

She knew i was very close to Brother K. So Brother K got pulled into her office as well for hours. Then she will question him stuffs bout me. Even after i left ITB, she kept asking Brother K bout me.
There was 1 day, Brother K was so pissed, he asked her… y u keep asking me bout him… u wanna know so much … ask him la… hehe..

True enough. She wanted me to be her son in law. Dream On. There was one day, her indonesian maid gave me a photo of 1 gal and her icq no. There was a letter in it, telling me she wants to know me. Later, i found out… it was all this lady’s angkara… tat photo and icq no, is her daughters one. The taukes wife can do such a thing… so desperate.. The worst thing is.. her daughter doesnt even know wats going on. Can u ever imagine having such a mother? Tats y no one talks to her in their family. Do u guys think i went to meet her on icq? DREAM ON… I still keep the photo with me though…

Talking bout me all the time.

In front of the other ah bengs, she talked about me, promoting me like nobodys business. She praised me and spoke good things about me. She talked like as though she knew me well. This wasnt good for me. The other ah bengs felt like as though im one class above them, when… we are all just the same. Thank God i knew how to play my way thru, or else, everyone wouldnt like me…

The thing i hate most is when ppl talk about my family background, especially bout my father’s profession. MY DAD’s achievement has got nothing to do with me. That is his success not mine. I am myself. Dun associate me with my dad. We are 2 diffrent individuals. And i dun share the same enthusiasm with him ( but im always proud to have such a great father.. ) This lady keeps telling the other ah bengs about my family. This pisses me a lot. Its very embarassing. Trust me, it aint easy for me.

What have I learnt.

Today, I look back at this incident… I know, GOD wants to train me to be a stronger person. He taught me how to be patient and stay still inspite of the things people hurl at u. God teach me how to handle irritating people like this. I learned that, we can never stop people from saying wat they want to say. The only thing we can do, is to be ourselves and dun care wat others say. Show people ur true self, eventually people will understand that watever others say is not true. The battle is not ours, It is the LORD’s battle. God will handle this kind of person HIS way. Later u will see how. God wont let anyone do something to his children and get away with it… :)  I oso learnt to forgive thru this experience. Ill tell u more next episode…

to be continued.

Everybody in the FRONTLINERS(RGBC YOUTH
MINISTRY)… knows my personal theme song is "ONE WAY"
by Hillsongs. Check it out. It has a catch tune.

I want to let u guys know… why i love this
song so much. Why i never get bored eventhough i listen to it 100 times a day.
I can just play One Way again and again on my mp3 player… and still
have my first love for this song. WHY?

Everybody knows, ive backsliden for 2 years. To find out more, read my
" from backslider to FRONTLINER " episodes. I turned
away from GOD. But God is gracious to me all the time.

I had no holidays for the past 2 years. It was a stressful and eventful 2 year period for me. It was at that time I learn that no one can help me but GOD alone. I prayed hard for a holiday. KL was my destination. Ive always loved the city lifestyle. I missed the tall buildings and canggih stuffs u can get in KL. I miss my favourite HOKKIEN MEE ( tai lok mee - the big black noodles ). And, i wanted to meet 2 good frens of mine and another childhood fren. These guys has been an encouragement and an impact to me all this while.

This guy asked me one day… hey… r u coming to KL end of this year? I replied, err… u gotta pray  for it. Cos my dad wont let me off. So after that, i diligently prayed for it daily.

One day, i asked my dad, can i go to KL? Miraculously, he let me go, even when i had to miss my classes. God is great. I wonder wat changed my dads mind… It has to be the prayers.

So… i finally went to KL. When i reached KL, the first guy i wanted to meet was Eric Lim. He picked me up in the LRT station. We finally got to lepak like the good old’ INTI days… He brought me around KL, we ate at Satelite Ngah Choy Kai (Ipoh bean sprout chicken) and then lepak kow kow. Crapped for hours, then we went to 1 Utama.  Praise GOD… after such a long time, i finally got to lepak with this guy. Wonderful guy. And a very encouraging brother as well. This guy calls me all the way from PJ and even Australia to keep in touch with me. So proud to have such a fren. Keep it up brother..

I stayed at Adrians place tat night and the following days. This is my childhood fren i knew since standard 1. We got to share a lot.

The next day, i went to the church i used to attend during my INTI days, Glad Tidings PJ. I cant wait to go there, cos, they finally moved to the new building. It was so touching, when i finally saw the new building. I did pledge a very small bit for the building, thus i had a sense of belonging with it. God rewards when we are faithful. They had 3 sanctuaries. And all of them runned at the same time.

The other guy i wanted to meet was Ah Pork. This guys another brother who had an impact on me. Thru his lifestyle… i saw GODs grace all the time. I see how God can be faithfull in spite of the failures we go thru in life. I met him in church and we went lepaking and crapping the whole day. We finally prayed for each other and said words of encouragement to each other.

I remember… he told me " Press on to JESUS. U will be a stronger person after u trust HIM ". " Dun worry, no matter how screwed up u are, God can change everything, as long as u repent ". Those words still stood in my mind till today…

The next morning, i woke up at around 11am. Adrian went to help his mom in their restaurant. I was alone in the room. Suddenly, i felt like praising GOD. The feeling was so intense. i locked up the room. I took the discman and played the song by hillsongs, ONE WAY.

That morning, i praised GOD personally on bended knees, with tears flowing. I told God thank you for giving me this holiday which i craved for 2 years. I got to meet the people i wanted to see. People whom impacted my life. People whom prayed so much for me. I couldnt have come tat far without them.

I sense the HOLY SPIRIT tat morning, telling me, God already has a great plan ahead for u in Penang. Tat morning, i promised GOD and made a covenant with HIM, that i will serve HIM wholeheartedly. I promised HIM, that no matter wat happens, i will never ever give up on the visions he has given me until i complete it. I promised never to ever complain about things again. I know that God wants me to be a FRONTLINER. This time… to be a true FRONTLINER.

Since tat morning, i never looked back again. The past is the past. Let God deal with it. I never even think of past glories anymore. I let go of my INTI days where i enjoyed to the max and saw the world. I must move forward. NO TURNING BACK !!!

Tat day, adrian sent me to the LRT station, i was returning to Penang. I felt weird. Cos, everytime when i go back to penang from KL, i was very reluctant and depressed. But this time, i cant wait to go back to penang. I know ive got a destiny to fulfill !!!

True enough, i look back from today, i am no longer the same person i was since i made that covenant. I am no longer the same playful and undependable slacker i used to be. I am a more driven person now, serious with my commitments. An ex-classmate of mine told me recently, " This is the first time i ever seen u serious in ur life ".  I am like the apostle peter after the days of pentacost. It is the work of the Holy Spirit that changed me this far. God is a God who sees the heart. It is only God who can get the best out of our hidden potential …

So u c, the song ONE WAY… had a significance in my life. I dun get bored with it. I can still jump with tat song. Because it reminds me of the day, LEPAK CHAN finally followed Jesus Christ with all his heart.

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Ah Guan.

I got to know this guy in the shophouse campus of ITB. This fellow always comes to class late and goes back early. Hmm.. this fellow, Ah Guan is wat i call a typical, Playboy Beng. Chinese call Hua Hua Gong Zi. At first when i saw him, i use to respect this guy. I thought, wow… what a guy, so hardworking. Study and working at the same time… not an easy feat u know… until i found out the truth… this guy is a con-men (when it comes to the gals).

Got la one day, we all tengah lepak, i puji him, "wah u so rajin ah" . Then he answered me back, "actually  I dun have to work 1. Im currently working in a supermarket as a promoter." "The reason i work is becos the supermarket im working got lots of ah moi". Aiya.. wat la this fellow… isnt there more to life than Ah moi.

His dirty tricks.
I learnt a lot of tricks on how to get the gals from this guy. His dirty tricks are worth to take note (This is the reason y some ah bengs can get the most prettiest of all chicks in town). But his methods are from the aliran sesat (dark side).. hehe… my ways r diffrent from his.. but… its good to learn and share with one another.

He thought me… the best way to get a gals attention is to bodek the gal, bodek until u want to muntah. Eg. say to the gal ‘ U r so pretty la, if i dun talk to u, i cannot sleep la". Sounds so fake rite? Guess wat, according to him, all the gals he got, is thru this simple basic principle, BODEK. Gals are not stupid until they dun know its fake. But they like the attention. Tats wat he says.

One thing bad about this guy is, he doesnt care about ppl’s feelings. He makes the gal fall deeply with him, then when hes finally bored, he just gets missing in action. He will call the gal everyday, till suddenly when hes bored, he’ll start to ignore the gal, ignore her calls, dun wanna see her and just get lost.. all of a sudden. Then he will go for the next target. Gals beware of this kind of guys.

His new found PASSION.
Ah Guan never liked engineering. He was forced to take up the course. He doesnt look like the brilliant type either. He was a directionless and aimless in life.

But hes definitely a very artistic person. Very particular about certain things. He likes beautiful stuffs. I learnt a lot about the chinese popstars from this guy. I use to buy the gossip magazines and ask him to teach me how to read. Then later, we will comment on our favourite popstars. It just like how the typical guy talks about football. Here its about all the popstars.

After he left ITB, he enrolled in a hairstyling school in prangin mall. We lost contact for quite sometime. One day, when i went to prangin mall to play "ting ting"(arcade games), i bump into him. Then only i found out, he was in this hairstyling school. I was very happy for him. Although he dropped out from ITB, he went on to pursue his passion, hair styling. I admire his courage to venture out of the conventional thinking.

There was once, when i was lepaking in the state-library, i bump into him again. This time, i saw him reading books. I was quite surprised. As far as i know, he doesnt read books. I greeted him and found out, he was actually looking for something to do with hair and sculp stuff from the library books. We chatted. He told me about his progress in the school. He even asked me to be his model for his final year project. Hahaha… i declined, cos im not free.

Then he told me, currently he is one of the top 3 stylist in his school. The other 2 is a gal, and a pondan. Wat impresses me most is his dream. He says, that once hes learnt from the best in the country, he intends to go to japan and strive to be the best hairstylist in Asia. I know he can do it. More importantly, he didnt follow the trend, he followed his passion. Ive heard many ppls dream, this ones an original one. I wish him all the best.

What challenges me is, what made a guy like him change? It is because, he suddenly found his direction in life, he found something to focus on. He’s showed me, that, its never to late to change. I was so happy for him. After i saw him in the library, i went out with brother K, and i told him bout ah guan. He too was very happy for this guy. It feels good to hear, that another brother u use to hang out with is doing well in life. Thats wat i call brotherhood.

There was this panic that was created in Penang. It seems someone gave a prophecy that there will be doomsday in Penang. The island will be covered with waves from tsunami. It seems that this person actually sends out vcds to warn the people in Penang.

Frankly speaking, when my friend told me bout this prophecy, i was shocked and terrified. Questions passed thru my head. I was worried, cos im passing thru penang bridge everyday. And supposingly penang bridge will be hitted by the tsunami.

That night, i actually discussed it with my friend. We were both afraid of it. It may sound ridiculous, but i believe it can happen, IF and only if the source is from GOD alone. Never trust any human who says such things. Pray and God will answer.

I asked GOD. And I got my answer.

In my heart i asked GOD, is it going to happen? LORD, what do u want me to do?

He reminded me that He has spoken to me many many times. I remember, that there were still many BIG things that GOD wanted me to fulfill. And this has yet to pass.

If anybody ask me, life is fragile, do u think u can live 2molo? MY ANSWER IS… YES of course. Without any doubt, i will still live for a few more years. Why am I so sure? Becos the things that GOD wants me to do is yet to be fulfilled.

I have yet to see my family problem solved.

Ive kept promise with GOD to be single till this very day, and in return He will bless me with the BEST ever wife i can ever have. Im still single while waiting patiently(or should i say impatiently… hehe) for that ultimate person…

I have yet to graduate, and GOD wants me to finish my studies, that was a direct order from HIM. The Fast Pace Life im supposed to live in the future, has yet to come true. I have yet to go to a bigger land.

My works in my church’s floorball ministry is yet to be complete. We are still growing. But there’s still lots of room for improvement.

There are still many souls in my heart that GOD wants me to work with.

I made my decision.

Then i told my friend, i will still go to penang, in spite of this prophecy. Because i know that i will surely not DIE. My life is in GOD’s hands. He has a plan in my life. Even if the tsunami was to hit, i know, i will get thru this hard times. And my friend agreed with me. He also told me that the things GOD wants him to do has yet to pass. That day, we both decided, that we will stand firm, and continue to serve GOD in our church in spite of any circumstances. We need not worry, becos, we are serving a true and living GOD. He is in control of everything.

That night i ask my youth pastor on MSN messenger, is it true? All he told me was, IGNORE IT… just 2 words. He didnt even explain a thing. So i was very sure by then that this event wont happen.

Today is already tuesday, nothing has happened. There was no sign of any earthquake or waves that impose a threat.

Conclusion.

If it were to come true, God would have warned all the pastors in Penang. He would have spoken to more than 1 pastors to confirm the event.

Even if the tsunami were to hit penang, GODs way is always asking us to pray and ask for repentance, not running away from doomsday. It is written throughout the bible about it. It is repentance that prevents GOD from allowing such things to take place. So REPENT !!!

Doomsday need not be such a big scale such as tsunami. It can be the problem we face daily. But if we repent b4 GOD and put Him first, we can get thru all our struggles with His strength. The problem will be there, but GOD can change the way we think about it.

Btw, this event has made me a more matured person in Christ. I know, that now, i can only trust Jesus with everything in my life. I know, that i wont die tommorow. Cos GOD HAS A BIG PLAN AHEAD FOR ME. Amen. Hallelujah !!!!