backslider to FRONTLINER pt 1
backslider to FRONTLINER pt 2
backslider to FRONTLINER pt 3
backslider to FRONTLINER pt 4
backslider to FRONTLINER pt 5
backslider to FRONTLINER pt 6
backslider to FRONTLINER pt 7
backslider to FRONTLINER pt 8
backslider to FRONTLINER pt 9

During those times, when ITB was shutting down, those were the times, when u c peoples true colors.

I never liked tat tauke’s wife for some good reason, shes a hypocrite. When everything was fine, she was praising me all the way. Promoting me in every sense. Even wanted me to be her son-in-law. But when students started leaving the institute, she talked bad about me behind my back.

She started condemning me and cursing my decision to leave the institute. She started saying tat i was a bad student and failed badly in my INTI days. She did even say i was a bad student whom always tuang classes. There were many more things that she hurled at me. And the WORST of all was, she took my personal details tat the institute kept and showed it to all the students to embarass me. That includes my certificates and result slips from INTI college days. I thought those information is supposed to be private and confidential? Well… I hated her for tat. I really hated her so much…

I was lucky to hear all this from all my ah beng frens. They too were pissed with her. Cos she didnt know i was their tai lo(Big Brother).. keke

After tat incident, all those ah bengs… left the institute and continued their life elsewhere. As for me… i made a big decision of my life… to switch course from engineering to accounting. Even then, when the tauke’s wife found out from brother K tat i went to study accounting, she condemned my decision and saying i wouldnt make it. Well… I really hate tat women.

After almost a year later after all these events, she did try to be nice to me. While i was in college, she came to my house and gave me mangoes and australian candies. I wasnt around then, it was my maid who got it from her. Thank GOD she didnt pass it to me, or … i might have done some uncivilised act.

When i found out it was her, i immediately told my parents bout it. I made a strong statement to them that i hate this lady. I called them to throw away all those gifts. I raised my voice saying tat she embarassed me in public, and tat is unforgivable. I was daring to do that at tat moment, which i usually dunt( cos im very scared of my father… keke).

Actually the purpose behind me telling my parents is to let them know, that they too make mistakes. I want them to know, this is their mistake tat i have to face such insulting times. Sometimes if u dun tell them, they would think as though, its just another story.

Tat night itself, i was down, cos i was reminded bout my past. I called my GOD-Sis immediately. She consoled me that night.. kekeke.. thanx yoko. My dad finally came to talk to me tat night, and told me… well.. just be civilised. Dun be rude or shout at her… cos tats wat we call kurang ajar. I can see from his face, he too was dissappointed, but i feel, his advise is correct. I listened to it.

When the tauke’s wife called, i answered her the civilised way, politely. But i didnt show extra interest in her conversations. It was more like her talking to a robot. She ask me 1 question, i answer 1 question. Nothing else. Then when she finally put down her phone… that the last ever time i heard anything bout her. Yes.. stay tat way.. get out of my life.

I finally forgiven this women.

I didnt want to forgive this person last time. But finally, i forgiven her. It was the down point for me . Yet i believe that that was the wilderness GOD put me to the test. Throughout my life, ive got insulted all the time, and battled over it. This was just one of them. I guess, some of us have to go thru this.

Today as i looked back, i can confidently say, i can go thru all kinds of insults people hurl at me. Cos im used to it.

The answer to all this… is knowing who is in control of ur life… As for me… It is Jesus Christ. I find my identity in HIM. Jesus by Himself was insulted even more than this. And He overcomed it all. Everytime i face this, I pray hard… expressing all my dissappointments to my creator and HE comforted me thru it all. I had all the reasons to hate her… yet… The Spirit of GOD kept telling me… FORGIVE HER… In the end.. i forgiven her.

The reason i forgave her was because GOD… is FORGIVING. God has forgiven me… so i too should forgive others. Bible teaches us… to live a testimony before GOD… and leave the battle into the LORDs hands. True enough… i heard… the taukes wife got into further problems later on. Never try to hurt God’s children. HIS eyes is always watching. I didnt need to do anything. But truly deep inside my heart… i have forgiven her. If she repented… and turned to GOD… i believe, that will be a great testimony.

As a future missionary, i believe GOD is training me to be tough… mentally and not to take insults so seriously. This is just part of HIS plans of building me up.

To be continued…