Things got out of hand yesterday. I finally got chased out of my house. Err.. can say tat im currently without a biological family. My dad asked me to choose between the family and Christ. I was trying to explain to him bout my relationship with Christ … about how it started. Finally he burst off… and then he said… GET OUT !!! I had to pack up my clothes… and go off.

The house was full of tears at around 6pm yesterday. But ive decided to follow Jesus. I really love my family. Yet i still honor GOD above all else. God has done so many things in my life. I cant deny His calling upon my life. From today onwards, i can only rely on Christ to continue on.

Right now im staying in marcus’ house for the night. His family has been very nice to me. Thank you marcus and family… ur hospitality is first class. God has been faithfull to me.

Looks like my life is gonna change. I can no longer live my life as it used to be. Especially my diet. HAHAHA… i can no longer simply eat as much as i want. Need to save money to survive. I no longer have my car around me. I cant lepak as i used to be. Lifes gonna be tougher now. I also no longer possess a handphone. So u guys cant contact me thru phone anymore. But if u guys are desperate to look for me, mail me at lepakchan@yahoo.com, MSN messenger or thru this friendster. :) 

I am currently seeking the LORD for a new direction in my life. About my education, i guess i have to postpone for the time being. Get a job to survive and save some funds to further my studies. Education is important after all…

Im doing fine. The christian family around here has been good to me. I cant believe that GODs love can be so real. If u wan to pray for me, pls pray for my family especially my father. Ive already known Christ personally. But this family has yet to know Christ. They need the peace of GOD to carry on. I believe one fine day, GOD will restore this family together again.

I hold no grudges against my family. In fact the day i left the house is the day i realised i love them dearly.

All i can do right now is to rely on GOD alone and put my trust in HIM. The GOD OF DANIEL IS WITH ME !!! THE GOD OF GIDEON IS WITH ME !!! Praise the Lord evermore. Hallelujah !!!

Finally yesterday, 12am, after one year of preparation, ive approached my dad and told him the truth that ive been attending church. I was scared at first. Before I started, i thought of cheating and lying a little to distort the truth. Yet, My GOD wont be happy with it.

I asked GOD to change my heart and fill me with His Holy Spirit. Somehow, i did it. I told nothing but the truth and only the truth alone. I tell you, that was the Holy Spirit. By my own understanding and own strength, i couldnt have done it. For ive been a lier all my life. But as i put the LORD as my utmost priority, HE has set me free from these bondages of sin. I was bold enough to speak the truth out. I was ready for any form of reaction my dad would give. Because i know, this is wat the LORD wants me to do. It may be suicidal. But this an oppurtunity to show GOD how faithful i am to HIM.

I started by asking my dad, " are you free? can we sit down and talk? ". And then, i said, " i want to make a confession,… that ive been attending church ". And then he answered, " why isit that u wan to waste ur time attending church". And then it goes on and on, from 12am till 1.30am. My dad went on and keep talking bout my past. Although i hated it, i had to listen and be patient. Surprisingly, i thought of the worst happening, yet, it wasnt that bad after all. But he is very very pissed. Well i expected tat.

What makes me sad is that, ive always been a bad testimony at home. But this is going to change. My dad told me, u choose, ur church or stay with me. I chose to stay back home. The reason is because, if i chose the church, i am rebelling against my dad. This is not honoring my parents, and thus it doesnt honor GOD. God has planted me back home for a purpose.

Ive always wanted to be an evanglist/missionary one day. But if i dont even have faith to overcome my parents, how can i face persecution? This is just the beginning of a new spiritual journey for me. More to come. I have the desire to plant churches one day. Yet…firstly i need to start building my church at HOME.

Today, although im saddened by the fact that i wont be attending frontliners anymore, i rejoice. GOD has freed my from SATAN’s slavery. Christ has done it again. Today Satan trembles. For I no longer live a life of lies. I AM FREE INDEED !!! Satan can no longer use this against me anymore. No more condemnation. For this is the day the Lord has made.

Today, the Lord has made a way for me to lead a righteous life once again. Praise The LORD !!! Thank you frontliners… for impacting my life. Be strong and courageous. We hold the KEYS to the Kingdom Of Heaven. The Lord our GOD is with us always !!! Amen, Hallelujah !!!

The Lord has finally used this whole 1 year to prepare me for HIS great plan, A BREAKTHROUGH IN MY FAMILY.

My brother is joining my cell group, Dynamic People for our cell retreat this 16, 17 and 18 of december. He will be our oikos. Please pray that the LORD will touch his heart and save his soul. Then i wont be alone in the family anymore to evanglise in my family…. kekekeke

After the retreat, I have decided… to approach my family… especially my dad. To tell them the truth that ive been attending church. I come to the end point whereby, i cant grow spiritually anymore unless i come face to face with my parents.

Frankly speaking, i dun want to approach them now. I tot it would be better to tell them after my graduation. But God has personally spoken to me…that this is HIS appointed time. That im now in an appointed position. Im in the right place at the right time. Im standing on green pastures.

This is the day, the LORD has prepared me for. I must go forth. It is my call to bring the GOSPEL to this family.

The spirit of the LORD has said it so clearly to me… I am with you all the days of ur life… as i was with my servant Moses. GO !!! I felt a strong annointing during the altar call one day. The prophet said… RECEIVE THE ANNOINTING OF THE LORD RIGHT NOW IN JESUS NAME !!!

I told the LORD… I will go… because i know… when i go… it wont be me who is speaking… it is the HOLY SPIRIT working through me… God will put HIS words in my mouth… so that no man can boast about himself… but boast only of the LORD alone.

Matthew 16:17-19

"… for this was not revealed to you by man, but by my Father in heaven. And I tell you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of hades will not overcome it. I will give  you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, whatever you loosed on earth will be loosed in heaven ".

The Lord spoke to me, that Hes given me the KEY to my family’s salvation. I will open up the doors of heaven to my family. I will build His church at home. Amen !!! Hallelujah !!!

I do not know what lies ahead. But one thing for sure, i know that my GOD is with me. I shall fear God alone. The God of Daniel is with me. The God of Gideon is with me. One day, they will accept Christ as their personal saviour.  All these will come to pass one fine day. Hallelujah !!!